so there’s this girl i used to be very good friend with but for the past year, we’ve barely spoken and now i just don’t know what she wants and what she thinks ? i don’t know if she still considers us friends, or used-to-be friends or acquaintances or someone she’ll always cherish because i was once a very good friend but now i’m from her past or someone she wants to keep in her life because that’s convenient ? i just don’t know and sometimes i want to let go of all this because, let’s face it, i know she’s sick (nothing serious) and her life’s not exactly perfect at the moment but i don’t know, i’m not an expert but i feel like when you’re friends with someone, you want to talk to them about things you like ? that’s what we used to do, but not anymore and i feel like my life would be a lot easier without all this questions… But at the same time, i don’t want to lose her ? and i probably want to get her out of my life to see if she cares to be honest… Also i don’t know if she doesn’t talk to me because that’s just the way she is, or because she’s too busy or because she’s friend again with this girl who used to be one of her best friends and she basically likes the same things i do except she reads comics so she probably think this other girl is way more interesting than me. I JUST DON’T KNOW. I want to talk to her about that but i don’t dare… I can’t just go talk to her out of the blue and be all like “hey so you hate me or what ? why do you ignore me ?” and when she finally talks to me, that’s not what i want to talk about… so yeah oh man, let me tell you, not wanting what someone wants from you is the worst.
EDIT: we were supposed to go to london together but in the end she couldn’t come and it’s gotten to the point where i’m pretty sure that she only wanted to come because she wanted to go to london and she didn’t really care if it was with me or someone else - in fact, i’m pretty sure she’d rather go with this other girl, but that’s probably just my twisted mind - she just wanted to go to london
there’s this girl i talk to sometimes at uni and she asked my phone number and then she asked if she could add me on facebook and now she’s inviting me to her housewarming
and everytime she does something like that i’m genuinely like WHY DO YOU LIKE ME ??????
Title: Bare Necessities
(i have a new ringtone and it’s great)
a friend of mine is supposed to come over next week but last time we talked, she didn’t have her train tickets yet, i don’t even know if she had the money to buy the tickets
i asked her if and when she was coming twice and i don’t have an answer yet so that’s great
i’d like to organize my things but i don’t know if she’s coming or when or what i know nothing and she isn’t answering that’s perfect
meet the blogger
- do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? why closed omg i don’t like seeing things when i try to sleep
- do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? no because i don’t go in hotels hahaha (but i’m pretty sure i would take them cute bastards)
- where is your next vacation? i guess London in december~
- who do you think reads these? bored people
- so you have a calendar in your room? nope
- what’s your plan for the day? i already did uni work so now… eat and maybe have a shower and spend some time with my mum and then go back to my flat
- are you reading any books right now? i’m reading great expectations but i didn’t really have time to read it properly during the last few days (weeks)
- do you ever count your steps when you walk? no ?
- do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? sometimes when i’m alone omg
- do you chew your pens and pencils? no, not really (i used to tho)
- what is your “song of the week”? errrrrrrr i don’t know ? Sight of the Sun by Fun. maybe
- is it okay for guys to wear pink? why yes of course~
- do you still watch cartoons? Disney and Pixar movies yes, but not like cartoons on tv
- what do you drink with dinner? water
- what do you dip chicken nuggets in? nothing most of the time, sometimes ketchup
- what is your favorite food/cuisine? i don’t really have a favorite omg i like everything omg (except really spicy meals)
- what movies could you watch over and over and still love? Pocahontas omg (among others ofc)
- when was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? it was probably last year when i was looking for a job…
- can you change the oil on a car? no (i don’t have a car anyway so)
- best thing to eat for breakfast? buttered toasts dipped in a hot chocolate ughhhhhh so yummy
- what is your usual bedtime? lately midnight/1 AM
- are you lazy? hahahahahaha yes.
- afraid of heights? not really, maybe a little
- occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? an actress
- hot tea or cold tea: hot
- tea or coffee? tea definitely
- favorite kind of cookie? cookie cookies ?
- can you swim well? N O P E
- can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? yes????
- who do you want to see right now? tom cutie pie hiddleston please
tomorrow i’m gonna know if i finally have my driving licence or if i’m gonna kill myself
i can’t wait