May I never forget how in the humble hard time-ridden reality of my life I loved you. That love remains, Julian, not diminished though changing, a love with a very clear and a very faithful memory. It causes me on the whole remarkably little pain. Only sometimes at night when I think that you live now and are somewhere, I shed tears.
- wherefore did you take away the crown ?
- God witness with me when I found no course of breath within your majesty how cold it struck my heart. I spake unto this crown as having sense and thus upbraided it: